Monday, September 24, 2007
Asked about executions of homosexuals in Iran, Ahmadinejad said the judiciary system executed violent criminals and high-level drug dealers, comparing them to microbes eliminated through medical treatment. Pressed specifically about punishment of homosexuals, he said: "In Iran we don't have homosexuals like in your country."
With the audience laughing derisively, he continued: "In Iran we do not have this phenomenon. I don't know who's told you that we have this."
Now I realize that all politicians say stupid things, but they are mostly things that people can laugh at and have fun with. But here we have a leader of a country making remarks like this and it just stuns me. I also realize that hatred for homosexuals is a world wide issue, not related to just one country. But this is the leader of a country denying these human beings even exist? What chance does a gay man or woman in Iran have when they don't even acknowledge that you exist?
The famous picture of those two young boys that were hung a couple years ago still haunts me. The world still questions how did Hitler come into power? How could civilized people ever let that happen? But then you look at some of the leaders in the world today that have risen to power and you wonder if the world is not on the verge of allowing itself to repeat past mistakes. This is like the 1930's all over again and one has to wonder if the world is about to go mad again!
BAD SKIN DAY - BELLX1
Another weekend gone, another night spent alone wondering where you are, what you are doing, and when you are coming back home to me?
Tonight I watered your plants, dusted and ran the vaccum to keep your flat clean. After doing this, I realized I had nowhere to be tonight, so I sprayed some of your cologne in the air to make it feel as though you had recently been there and I sat down for a moment on the couch. I saw your photo album under the coffee table and looked through it. Pictures of your family, friends, and you as a lad all the way to the wonderful man you are today filling its pages. I was pleasantly surprised to see pictures of us in the back of the album, the newest additions. (I still have to organize my pictures and take them out of the box in the closet and put into a photo album).
I closed my eyes and imagined you were there with me. Many thoughts and memories filling my head and for a brief moment I forgot it was all just a dream and you weren't really there. Eventually I opened my eyes and was alone again in the flat.
I got a drink and went out on the balcony and stood. The lights from the city flickering in the distance. I watched and listened to the cars going by and I wondered what stories they would tell of their lives. Were they hurrying home to someone they loved, or escaping from someone they hate? Did they have someone to love and love them back, or are they lost in their loneliness wondering where love will find them? Are they celebrating the birth of a child or mourning the death of parent? Were they driving to or from work, stopping to pick up dinner or run an errand along the way? Each of us has a story of our lives and I couldn't help but wonder what some of their stories would be?
As I stood there on the balcony, thinking all these thoughts, there was a strong breeze blowing across the land bringing with it the chill of the winter to come which was making its presence known. The cool air felt good against my face and hair and it somehow gave me assurance that I was alive and this wasn't all just a dream. I had put on your jacket from your closet before going outside and when my hands became chilled, I put them into the pockets of the jacket. I felt something against my fingers and upon pulling it out and looking at it I realized it was your pendant with the broken clasp. I held it in my hand, thoughts of you, so far away, once again filling my mind.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Now I am back home, had a shower and I am ready to relax for a few hours this morning. I was just talking to my cousin who is online right now. He has a dry sense of humor. He says things that are funny and doesn't even realize it.
I think if it doesn't rain I may go rock climbing later or just take a hike in the country. I just feel like being outdoors today if the weather holds up. I also need a haircut, so I'll have to fit that into the day.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Tonight after work I went to the grocery store. I wasn't really in the mood to go, but I forced myself into going and getting it done. So I walk inside, grab a cart and I am walking through the fruit and vegetable area when I notice one of the hottest guys I have ever seen in my life. Everything about him is what I am attracted too. If I could create a man, it would turn out to look like him. He was like the perfect looking guy. Well groomed coal black hair, just a little tan, tall, lean, dressed in a dark blue shirt with black pants an earring in his ear. When he walked by me to go around the corner to the next aisle, he smiled at me and I noticed he had the cutest smile and blue bedroom eyes. Anyone that knows me knows I go weak in the knees for a guy with a nice smile.
I continued my shopping and as I continued through the store we continuously ran into each other going up and down the aisles. We got to the bread aisle and there was a store clerk in the middle of the aisle blocking it with a cart full of boxes. I was coming down one end of the aisle and this hot guy was coming down the other end of the aisle. We both go to the middle of that aisle and there was just enough room to squeeze through to the other side.
Just as I went to walk through the narrow walkway, he tried to come through and we wound up standing face to face with each other. He smiled and said something to me. But I looked into his eyes and just froze. I knew he was saying something, but all my mind was thinking was "My God he is talking to me, he is talking to me." I still don't know what he said, but before I could compose myself and say anything or move back and allow him to come through, he put his hand on my side and squeezed through. He had this smile on his face as he did it and his body pressed against mine and slid through. My mind raced with thoughts from, "He is so fucking hot, to oh my god he just rubbed his body against me. Then the good little angel voice in my head spoke up yelling, "Boyfriend, you have a boyfriend!"
I was still just frozen, standing there analyzing these thoughts in my head when he suddenly came back through and squeezed by me again, placing his hand once again on my side. He smiled at me this time, not saying anything as he rubbed against me and went back to his cart.
I was still just standing there analyzing what just happened when I noticed the stock boy stopped stocking shelves and started watching us as if he could tell what I was thinking. I grabbed a loaf of bread and started to walk down the aisle trailing behind the hot guy. I was checking his ass out when I suddenly realized, he never picked up any bread. You went through all that and didn't get any bread anyway. As I wondered about that, I could tell he knew I was behind him because he kept looking back over his shoulder and smiling at me.
He went around to the next aisle at the back of the store. I took a deep breath and decided I needed to just leave the store before I get into anything I may regret later.
So I went to the check out and before long he was in the aisle next to me checking out. As we were in line he kept glancing over at me and smiling. I smiled back and then he made small talk with me. I thought to myself a straight guy would probably not be so into talking to another guy he doesn't know in the grocery store, let alone squeeze his body twice up against the stranger. That is when I realized, I think is flirting with me. That is when I realized he was the devil in disguise trying to tempt me to do something bad.
I got my bags and as I walked to the car, I could tell he was behind me. I get to my car in the parking lot and guess whose car is parked right across from the one I am driving...you guessed it, his car.
We're putting our stuff in our cars when he starts talking to me, making small talk. I replied back and we had a nice little conversation. Then he asks, "Do you come here often? I mean do you shop here often?" I replied that I did, that I liked the store. He said he does too and maybe he would see me around. I said yeah maybe. He reached over, shook my hand and said his name. But I have no idea what his name was because all I thought was he had the softest hand and I noticed there was no wedding ring on his hand. I think I told him my name, I don't even know what really came out of my mouth to tell the truth. But he smiled, stood there for a moment and then we parted.
I sat in my car for a moment thinking, I just let my version of the perfect looking guy drive away. Then I thought, I must really love my man. But he has been gone for two months now, going on three because of his job. I am not sure when he is coming back. But it better be soon or I may be shopping with the devil again soon.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Since you are half a world away in Kansas, I could not bake you a cake for your birthday, so I got you a Shnickers bar instead. lol
A little bit of your man Nicky!
Friday, September 14, 2007
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I haven't heard from him in almost two weeks. I've been keeping busy and thought I was doing fine, but I hate nights like this when the stars are shining and its a romantic night, but there is no one to kiss. I keep remembering our first date, it was a cool night and I had forgotten my jacket and was cold. He took his jacket off, put it around me and we had our first kiss. It was a night just like tonight.
I have to go to bed soon, but I am not tired. I think I will go back out in the yard, sit in the chair, look up at the stars and watch the planes fly overhead and imagine where they are going and wonder where my guy is and hoping he is safe. Maybe he is sitting someplace, looking up at the stars and thinking of me.
Sept 11...To those lost, you are not forgotten. Rest in Peace. May the world someday learn to live in peace.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
I will be offline for a couple days. We are going to go see my cousin's Rugby team. So we will be hanging out at his place for a few days. Speaking of Rugby, isn't Ben Cohen the hottest Rugby player ever? Sorry cuz. No offense. Don't beat me up.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
I'm Bringing Sexy Back. (Heard that song five times today. ACK!)
Red = Drift net
Jamie Bamber - now this is something I would love to catch. I would not be throwing him back for being too small!
Sunday, September 2, 2007
They have trashed the flat already in a couple days. I always thought I have a nice size flat until you try living with five other mates. We watched Casino Royale tonight. They were all talking about the fight scenes and car chase, but I was watching to see Daniel Craig shirtless. Funny how people can be watching the same thing and yet see it with totally different views.
My boss is taking us out on his boat tomorrow. That will be fun. So I'm off to bed. Speaking of bed, I am sharing mine with two of my closest mates. For a gay man who has not had sex in a month, being in the middle of two good looking men is very tempting. My best mate told me if he wakes up sore and I wake up smiling, I had better be buying him breakfast!
Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions
Still Loving You - Scorpions