We're in Howth today for a wedding of a couple who are good friends to Gareth and me. We had the rehearsal last night and a little party afterwards. Things have been rough lately for us, but last night surrounded by our good friends we found laughter again.
Several times we found the other laughing with a friend over something silly and our eyes would meet and we would smile at each other, lost in our own world. One time Gareth winked and nodded his head towards the door. We both made our way out the side door and found ourselves standing quietly and staring at the view. Howth is one of the most beautiful, romantic places in Ireland and it was just what we needed.
There was a cool breeze blowing in off the ocean, but standing close together we let the heat of our bodies keep us warm. At first I stood behind him, my arms around his waist. But he's taller than me and I couldn't see the view without leaning to the side, which hurt my ribs. So we switched and I stood in front of him and leaned my head on his shoulder. He whispered he loves it when I laugh. I told him I love it when he laughs, which made us smile and we shared a kiss. We stood there just holding each other staring at the view and listening to the ocean until the side door opened and our friends came looking for us to come back in and join the celebration.
Today we're going to witness another couple confess their love for each and make a commitment for life. They'll be lucky enough to do this in public, surrounded by their friends and family. For Gareth and I, still denied this right, its the quiet moments like last night in which we reaffirm our commitment to each other.